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Discouragement

Crested Wheat grass at Arapaho Bend Natural Area

Too many times discouragement has been the bonus for unrealistic expectations, not to mention self-pity or fatigue from my wanting to change the world by the weekend.

Daily Reflections, March 2

Last Monday was not a good emotional and mental day for me. I felt like running away from the chaotic state of this world and those creating it. Knowing there is no place called “away”, I drove to one of my natural areas to find some solace, some comforting and healing. They are my sanctuaries. The sun felt good as my body soaked it up. A cool breeze blew lightly in my face. After a few much needed deep breaths I knew I had my feet back on the ground and to move on with the day. Sometime later after talking with friends I realized my difficult feelings were the disappointments I have with the world. I desire all things to be in perfect harmony and without discord but that is not life. My unrealistic expectations brought on those discouragements. Setting realistic expectations and living in acceptance of what I cannot change and what I can change is something I’m slowly learning. Learning patience and acceptance.

Retired. Having fun with photography. Journal daily. Meditate daily. Learning haiku. Have a love for fountain pens.

2 Comments

  • Earl

    These are very difficult times, Monte, and I can identify with the feelings and emotions you described here. I find acceptance to be a key method of coping. Acceptance does not mean we hide away and pretend the turmoil doesn’t exist or that we do not grieve for all the injustice we see. Like sailing upwind we must sometimes tack many times before reaching our destination, whatever that may be. It is good to have sanctuaries.

    May you have a good and peaceful weekend. Take care.

    • Monte Stevens

      I expected you to identify with the feelings and emotions. I’ve discovered over time that some of the things I considered bad have turned out to be a gift in disguise but at the time not even close. My acceptance that this is how it is now and how do I face it are my true questions.

      I hope you and Bonnie have a wonderful weekend. We are expecting more cold, rain, thunderstorms and possible snow. Winter ain’t over yet.